So apt

I don’t really talk too much about what what went on in my love life last year, but sometimes I allude to my single state and how I got there. I’m not intentionally trying to be cryptic, it’s just not much of a story: boy loves girl, girl loves boy, boy is no longer sure if he loves girl, girl doesn’t stick around to see which way will be up when the dust settles. Even though I’m okay now with being on my own, and even feel sane enough to date again, sometimes I will hear a song that speaks so much to what I was feeling when my world fell apart.

This time, I was listening to Toad the Wet Sprocket’s 1994 release Dulcinea. I love Toad, but I’m also listening to the cds of theirs that I don’t frequently play, in anticipation of seeing them in concert later this month (squee!!). So this song is, appropriately, entitled “Stupid,” and here is the chorus:

And it’s frightening
Oh, I didn’t expect that from you
It’s blinding
Serious are you seriously
I am feeling really stupid now

I would listen to Glenn Phillips read the freaking phone book if they’d sell tickets to such an event, but these words and the emotion in his voice pretty much summed up my July.